I thought it was going to be awkward after last night, but being with Rick was like the most natural thing in the world. I feel my face growing hot when I remember the moment we shared, the overwhelming feeling in my heart.
I walked to school earlier than usual. I was in a daze, my heart fluttering for no reason.
Is this what it feels like when you're in love?
I feel like all of the walls I've built around me have crumbled and Rick effortlessly barged his way in. What's more was that I let him, let him enter my life, my heart and now the emptiness in me was filled to the brim.
I never knew that a human heart would be capable of beating a hundred times more than the normal but still keep you alive.
I smile at the thought. I placed my palm in my chest trying to feel how my heart was faring.
"You don't clutch your chest anymore, that's a good sign."
"Soo.. are you gonna spill the beans now?" She gave me a nudge. She clung to me and half dragged me to the PubRoom. She locked the doors behind her and motioned me to seat. I sat in my usual chair and she took hers in front of me. Not long ago, we were at the same place talking about a different matter concerning the three of us: me, her and Rick. But this time it's gonna be something different.
"You're glowing, I can sense you since you stepped in campus." She smirked at me. "Really now, what happened last night?"
I told her where Rick took me yesterday. I gave her all the details, confession and all because she would eventually squeeze it out of me anyway. "So you two are dating now?"
"I-I.." I stuttered. "I have no idea. We didn't talk about it last night."
She gave herself a face palm. "You two, are so slow it's so painful to watch, you flirt like crazy and now you're at it, you just confessed to each other and now you're telling me you don't know if he's already your boyfriend?"
"Aggghhhh...this is so annoying !"
I just stared at her not knowing what to say.
Yup. She's pissed.
She took a deep breath and slammed her hands on the table. "I don't want to be meddlesome so sort it out yourself."
She stood up and left. I was dumbstruck. I guess I could not blame her for being so mad at me. She told me, without batting an eyelash, that she still loved Rick. And here I was, Rick already confessed to me but I was still unsure of myself. I like him, really like him. So what's stopping me?
".. it's ok to be selfish sometimes."
How many times would I use that phrase as an excuse? But when it comes to Rick I want to be selfish. I want to keep him to myself, just mine. And with that, I stormed out of the room to look for him.
It didn't took me long to find him, the moment I opened the door he was there, standing, surprised.
"I was about to knock." He said, rubbing the back of his neck.
"I was gonna look for you."
He shot me a look. He pushed me back inside and for the second time, the door was locked behind us. Rick leaned down and gave me a kiss. It was gentle, teasing. I succumbed to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck while his hands traveled from my waist to my back, pulling me closer to him. His kiss became deeper as his tongue traced my lips, prying it open so my tongue could play with his.
"I missed you." He said in between kisses.
I pulled my self from him but he kept his hands on my waist. "We were together last night." I frowned.
He kissed my forehead. "I know. But I want you with me 24/7."
"So you're gonna monopolize me now?"
He laughed, his eyes sparkled like fireworks.
Fireworks. I guess this was what he meant.
"Can I do that? Can I keep you?"
I buried my face in his chest. I could hear his heart beating loud. The faint smell of coffee that's now imprinted in me, and the feel of his hands on my back, I want it all.
"I'm all yours."